Saturday was a fabulous day. I slept in until 9, did some laundry and cleaned the kitchen, brought Nathan some lunch at seminary, I went to Target, did some grocery shopping, hung out with friends in the evening, etc. It was a very close to normal day, and to boot, the weather was lovely.
Sunday started out the same way, but, unfortunately, it didn't end up that way. Before church, I checked my sugar (82) and Nathan asked if I wanted some cereal. I said, "Yes, please." I neglected to tell him that half a cup of granola is close to my maximum carb count for the meal. I ate a big bowl of the stuff - probably about a cup and a half - and then when we got to church, I had a few (okay, maybe more than a few) bits of bagel pieces. Carbs, carbs, carbs.
During Sunday school, I just could not keep my eyes open. I totally fell asleep when Nathan was teaching! Afterwards, I went into the bathroom with a pounding headache to check my sugar, and it was at 326! No wonder! I was kicking myself for not being careful with my food intake. I was also really discouraged, because after my good day yesterday, I was thinking that I was closer to having this thing under control. I haven't had a reading that high since before I started taking the shots.
Anyway, today my sugars are a little high, but they dipped kind of low in the last hour. I hate feeling so unpredictably inbalanced. Please pray that this six-month-long balancing period will be shorter. I don't like feeling this way, and it really affects everything: my work, my home life, my spirit, my marriage, etc. However, while it lasts, I would like to learn how to turn these setbacks into opportunities to grow closer to the Lord and to depend on Him with every step.
Once again, Jesus Calling had encouragement for me yesterday:
Grow strong in the Light of My Presence. Your weakness does not repel Me. On the contrary, it attracts My Power, which is always available to flow into a yielded heart. Do not condemn yourself for your constant need of help. Instead, come to Me with your gaping neediness; let the Light of My Love fill you.
A yielded heart does not whine or rebel when the going gets rough. It musters the courage to thank Me even during hard times. Yielding yourself to My will is ultimately an act of trust. In quietness and trust is your strength.
3 comments:
My dear Nicole, once again you encourage and inspire me. You are brave and strong and beautiful. When I was reading your post, 2 Cor. 4 came to mind. What a beautiful picture of God's strength being made perfect in our weakness. We are lowly jars of clay, but we possess the greatest treasure--Christ--and when we are broken His glory can truly shine even more brightly within us. :)
I'm praying for you, friend. Love you so much!!
-Amy E.
oh dear friend,
loved the post but my heart aches for you. thinking of you today and praying for a quick and smooth transition. love you! kristi
Hi Nicole, I'm Tom, Kristis Uncle. I was diaognosed with type 1 when I was 20. A big change for sure! But I realized it was something I was stuck with and have tried to be positive with thru the years. I figured it helped me to eat healthier and hopefully live longer with fewer complications. I don't know if you're doing shots or have a pump? I did shots (4 daily) for about 33 years (wow, scares me to think of that long!) Then about 5 years ago I went to a pump, which I love. My sugars are all over the place even with a pump. I can monitor a day where my numbers are in the low 100s, then the next day, same diet and exercise and struggle to keep it under 200. Why it works that way I don't know, but its very frustrating at times. I've been very lucky as through all these years I've had very few problems. I see others that struggle with some basic health concerns. Who knows why? Just do your best to follow the advice your doctors and health team give you, and ride the wave! The highs and lows will come and go on their own, we just have to try and eat right, excercise, take our meds, and trust in our faith to help us out. If you'd like to correspond, my address is tlconromero@yahoo.com If I can be of any help, I've been through it too! To your continuing good health....Tom Caesar
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